what actually makes a friendship? Two or more people who shares the same interest or is it history or spawns from genuine feeling of care and concern? I used to have a friend, S, that I did many crazy things. Being with her opened up a brand new experience with many uncertainties in life. It opened my eyes on the other true essence of life; living a life that is opened to many possibilities that in return humbled me as I anchored to nothingness all alone. Not really all alone but with a friend, R, that breathed a hope in life that turned me into a passionate lady in her 20s. Somehow, I got all deluded by the current situation at that time and forgot all the good things my friends, R & J, had done for me. I know it was because I used to be easily bended and swayed by others at that moment, I just wanted to strongly stick to what I believe and be all righteous. However along the roller coaster ride and mainly after that, I just think that true friendship is someone who can accept you for better or worst and just treasure friendship at the end of the day after being hurt. I believe no one is really out there to intentionally hurt their friends. It taught me too that even though I may not agree, I do not have to agree and follow them just to be friends. I just have to be quiet and respect their way of thinking. I still have S kindergarten graduation pic. I am sure she is reluctant to reply due to whatever reason that I simply could not remember on how I had offended her. I hope we can talk about it for a closure and frankly, I do not expect us to be buddies like before but at least to move on as I learnt what I should not do in a friendship. For R & J, I did make an attempt especially to R but I guess her heart has closed for me. I do wish them all the best especially right now, I am in my 30s and hoping to be a mother some day.
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